Belated awareness

 As a human female, I was not very sensible. Because it is the eldest daughter of the family, relatively favored child, thought to be father and mother love is taken for granted, they developed a certain arrogance of temper.
Senior high school too much pressure for some time often feel uncomfortable somehow. In school I will not just send other people's temper, but at home, met my father and mother nagging, they told me that every word is possible the fuse is caused by my temper. Every time a pass directed at them screaming, and then touch to close the door, silently wept inside. In fact, do not want to hurt them, but I do not know then why do not control their emotions Although each issue of guilt over his temper are sorry to death, but such events are endless. then apply to college, they are angry with Mom and Dad during a fit of anger reported a far place, with a suitcase on it on the Road.
never too far out of the door, Mom and Dad had never been out of the shelter, a city in their native place, at the beginning of life a bit dazed. Maifan own, own laundry, finishing their chores. that fear most is the time to sleep, sometimes waking up I thought I was home, but the care of four head look all around strange. the kind of psychological great contrast, often inexplicable to me want to cry . So often his head covered with a quilt, a person quietly cry. parents are frequently called, is the most nagging: . It seems like a fragile child. However, after taking the phone, but also Wang Ran to regret it. Sometimes I hate myself a little, do not know how to be so naive.
Finally one day, in the school by the aggrieved night, Mom and Dad just called. heard the warm side of the phone sounds familiar, I could not hold back, the students face in front of quarters to cry again. hostel terrified students phone that head of the father and mother is frightened, and kept asking me what had happened. In their eyes, I am stubborn, if not a place for a very serious matter, I will not cry in front of them. I side cry I said quietly: said my father would take the opportunity to travel to see you. That evening, the first time a lot of Mama and Dad, then, feelings, and their distance seems much closer than before. They gave me the feeling of a harbor. If I is a drifting boat, and only in them that I can get peace of mind and comfort. I just do not understand why the share of close love, only when far from the only to feel more real.
freshman that In the winter, my father went to school to pick me back home. a kind of returning to the warmth of home, but feeling old at home I had never felt before. heart made up my mind to do a filial daughter, no longer as in the past provoked angry parents. However determined, but three days down, past quarrels and relapse. they seem to have very nagging than ever before. I do not know because I have not been home long been unfamiliar to them chatter , or simply because nobody at school, at home, finally broke endured three days. I thought that six months after their independent life, is much more sensible than previously considered, thus suddenly found himself on this aspect of their parents still no way be tolerated. sent a temper, calling a friend to talk to, they said all parents are like this, are noisy, so like a peace of mind of the past. to return to school the day before leaving home, watching a father and mother one to carefully look through my bags to see if I have forgotten something at home for their holidays approach, there has been a bit sorry.
back to school soon after have their own circle of friends, all will be gradually forgotten. Once in the school to be to get used to, it still Yu Deshui days, without parents, but free. when he first entered the school have become accustomed to the history of the concept of getting away from home. Parents call , asked nothing more than to live and study. asked a lot more to start wearies. Gradually, the phone seems to have become routine.
sophomore summer of that year the department completed a month of classes, the remaining one do not want to go home on vacation, preparation, and students stay in school here, get a job, to a work-study program. and parents to discuss a lot, although they do not agree, I still stubbornly stayed. less than two days , we lost a cell phone. too lazy to go booth to call the home, like this a couple of days, the fourth day of the evening, my father suddenly went zooming in front of me. I was struck a half-day can not say words. came to me with his classmates, said: see father's face down loose. Some annoyed: More is complaining. can not say anything, just do not want to see him so hard to catch all the way over just to such a trivial matter. father and daughter meet with nothing to say, my father bought me a mobile phone back. This is something I have been able to put aside. then listen to my mother called and said: is afraid of you ever has. in our hearts, as long as your business is our priority. not to mention here, even if we will come running abroad. experimental classes, the end of July holiday is expected. I busy for two weeks, the experiment done rush. finished the lab report, calculated that day, just in time for his brother's birthday, and decided to buy a bus ticket to go home that night . Tizhexingli on the train to the bus station was already more than four in the afternoon, the scenery along the way looking at the vehicle, think of the end of the experiment was finally relieved. looking out on the street under the sun, a huge billboard, all of a sudden feel a bit wrong. Since the reverie in the Hui Guoshen, but found that the scenery outside the car was very strange. panic started, and asked the others found out this bus was actually changed the line. pity me bored at school all day in the experiment , did not know in advance. hurried off, diversion. and on the car, but it is more unfortunate is actually also changed the channel, and is around the bus station, complete strangers from another place I go through. until found after the stop, but it is the refurbishment of a very desolate area. look at the time, is to a five-point more. I dragged the luggage to walk slowly in the streets to find a site, finally found a bus station bound for vehicles. However, to the bus station, but has missed the time to buy a ticket.
spate of misfortune happened to me, I fell to the deserted bus station waiting room, and never want to move. for a long time, luggage and frustration go back to school by car. Though it was dark down, surrounded by neon lights, etc. for half an hour until finally one, on the train but Banke, a couple a mobile phone stolen, so the driver stopped the car, hit 110. One person remained in the car waiting for the police car. Once the original air-conditioned car to stop, there will be hot and unbearable. One day things went through so much mold, this time I was a little tears the.
men and women looking for a car pulling a long face, but I do not know how, suddenly remembered last summer to come here looking for my dad. of this city, he is more familiar than I am. In this strange, the He gave me three days, but I do not know what kind of mood. anxious, worried .... run around in this city for three days, if I was him, at the moment to find her daughter, I would have sent a pass to a large temper. and he found me, sure I was safe the moment, the eyes, only happy. angry man - I. can not think of understand his feelings, is in such a hot car. my mother that day that remarks rang in my ears .-- As long as your business is our priority. in the car, pulled a phone call home. connected, the front side of the phone sounds familiar, I just said one sentence: